I dislike being sick, because it obviously is no fun. But on the other hand there is no better time for some serious introspection than when you physically can't do anything else but lay like broccoli and think.
Creatively I have been suffering lately. I don't MAKE things anymore. I MANAGE things, but I don't create. I miss the tactile life I once had. The touch and feel of the fibers I worked with the create beauty in this world, in my world. I have realized that I am the artist I always thought I wasn't. In school I was never as talented as the other girls in my department, but I have found that this doesn't mean I am not an artist, for being an artist is a sense of reality much less than an occupation. How you see the world, how you experience life, and how you approach things is what makes you a creative soul. My creative soul longs for something more.
My life is about to shift, things are going to start changing. Fall is here bringing with it new opportunities, and I am ready to branch out and see what I can accomplish and experience in my life. It is also a time to look back over the past seasons and remember all the wonderful things this year has brought to me. In order to do this I will be back writing about some experiences I haven't shared yet, reliving them myself and sharing them with you.
2011 started with a trip to the beach with my best friend Jessica. We did nothing but watch TV and drink wine and talk. One night I decided I would use 2011 to start really living my life and doing all the things I never thought I would do. I would move forward with excitement and a resolution to be more alive than ever before. This has manifested in some very interesting and life changing experiences, which are helping to shape me into this person, and I am excited to see what the remaining months will bring.
Much Love,
Emma
